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u gave her to me

Wednesday, December 9th, 2009

the blessed day came but way to early. young and afraid and didnt no wat to do. trusted the doctors to use the wisdom given by God. shes doing better one told me. finally some good news but short lived. the specialist arrives and says shes not responding we’ve done all we can. another explains if she does survive , being on 100 % oxygen for a week will cause brain damage or blindness. my heart is sinking fast . surrounded by family and friends wat else to do but pray. more news that crushed me but not my spirit. she will probably not make it thru the nite. late that nite i sat alone in the waiting room and began to pray. father i come to u on behalf of my little girl , u gave her to me and im grateful for ur blessing, but shes yours to give and yours to take. my Lord i have nothing to offer but a promise. as much as i can do being just a man i ask if u give her to me i will do wat i can to make sure she lives for u and i dedicate her life to u that she may always desire ur way. Lord this is all i have and i leave it in your hands. give me ur peace and rest tonite and thank for hearing my prayer. the nurse had arranged a place for me to sleep so i went to my room and felt at peace as i slowly went to sleep. waking at 630 i quickly went into the icu to c my baby girl. something was different , all the numbers on the different life support equipment were changed. i called the nurse and asked wats going on and wy didnt i know about the changes. her response echos in my mind as if it were yesterday. ” I dont know wat happened but during the nite she just responded. shes gonna be just fine and can go home in a few days ” . My God heard my cry . One of the best preemie specialist in the world had thrown up her hands so i threw christa into his hands. she will be 20 years old soon with no brain damage or blindness. His hand is on her life and she has a heart for the Lord . speak good things over ur children and bathe them in prayer and he is faithful and his word never fails.


always !

Saturday, October 24th, 2009

i recieved this note around the age of 13. i have only recently found it and had forgotten about it. its amazing how a word from so long ago can be so relevant to my life today. just like wen we read the word and it all is relevant in our lives today . thank u for reading and allowing me to share how good my father is . john 10:10 is my verse for the day.


broken road

Thursday, October 22nd, 2009

broken road has nothing to do with the flats. it describes wat my life was like working for a band. during that time i allowed myself to be put in alot of not so good situations. i describe the average show from start to finish. i felt as though i had no choice but to compromise . a discussion with a former friend that came true precisley as i had proclaimed . 3-5 years for my plan to be done. it took 3 1/2 years. i thought i was recovering but then a huge blow that knocked me down. time dragged on with little to no sleep for months then finally one last dagger to the heart and i was completely broken. i did the only thing i could, crawl back to my Lord ask him to restore my life. within days he set in motion all he had been waiting to give me. i needed conformation and i got it on the side of hwy 85 . u have to do a little searching but the last sentence has 2 names in it. vr guide book .


again !

Saturday, August 22nd, 2009

a revolving door in and out of our lives people come and go, but now and then things are different you feel it and u no. a few are not the same, truly some good friends, but time slips by memories fade and often theres an end. we meet him at a young age drawing cloose for a wile, truly a good friend, but time slips by memories fade often we lose a smile. hes always cloose we pass by and forget to stop and say, hey old friend ive missed u, “well ive been here everyday!” Im sorry i wandered off it been 5 and 15 years, lots of things have changed but all the good started with some tears. 5 years without my savior but hes taken all my fear. 15 has passed for me and james and i began to wonder and pray, if my good friend knew the Lord, I think ? maybe one day. a week ago he was there as i began everyday, now sadness has come to him, nothing to do but pray. but as we spoke he seemed at peace, and thru his voice i can here a grin, ” I know she is in a better place and the best part is , I get to see her again !


Whispers on the lake

Friday, July 17th, 2009

as i drove up to my parents house i saw the lake straight ahead of me . it was a beautiful day about 5 in the afternoon. i went and stood at the point on the lake just to admire wat the Lord had created. looking for a little quite time with the Lord i found myself overwhelmed with thankfullness and astonishment at wat i was seeing and then hearing wat the Father was whispering to me. I have seen the lake many times before but on that day it was calling me. well, i mean the Lord was calling me to it. enjoy !


the teacher and the test

Sunday, July 12th, 2009

one nite wen i was about to fall asleep, i was thinking bac on wy things dont progress the way they should and wat was i doin to impede the plan of wat the Lord has in store for me. being that a teacher is on my mind ALOT these days it came to me that life is a test and if the Lord knows we havent learned our lesson in watever He is dealing with us on, then we must retake it time after time until we get it rite.